This is hanging on my dad’s office wall. Me at 15. I saw this picture at my dad’s house, and it broke my heart.
I saw a gorgeous 15-year-old girl, but that’s not the 15-year-old girl I remembered.
The 15-year-old I rememberer was chubby, with braces, looked like a boy, and was much too much.
Too much, physically.
Too much curly hair.
Too much love to give.
Too much of a talker.
Too much of a singer.
Too much of an actor.
Too much of a kiss-up.
Too much for her parents.
Too much for her brother.
Too much for boys.
Too much for herself.
Too much everything.
That is not who I see now. I see someone who was just enough.
I see this picture and see a gorgeous 15-year-old, with a big personality, who was painfully insecure. More than anything, I wish I could go back and tell myself: “Embrace your curves. You’re never going to be a size 0, so stop fighting it so hard. You’re only wasting time and energy. Embrace your talents and loving spirit. You don’t need to be your big brother, best friend, or anyone else for that matter. You just need to be you. It’s enough. Don’t be afraid of being different. It’s the very thing that will change your life for the better. You’re enough. You’re special. Life is going to be so sweet. And, lastly, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay.”
I dedicate this post to all girls in middle school and high school out there, and their parents. I promise it’s going to get better. YOU’RE okay, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay.